hello all, havent been blogging in a while, just didnt have the mood.

I never did much lately too, went tioman. It was pretty dull there, but the things there are duty free and cheap. Went with poh guan, patrick , air, and 3 of pg's friends jose, jonathan and tanya. They were very ang moh pai but well i can speak with ang moh accent too ok! haha

never did anything strange over there, there wasnt any special services lol.

came back, rot, plays bits and bits of guitar, dad is jobless and I dunnoe how to find him a job. Times are hard and for someone his age with little education, its even harder.

sometimes i'll think why my dad cant work a bit harder when hes young. And to trouble himself at such an age.

Sometimes i really feel negative about him. But hes my father after all.

I had a quarrel with him today, because hes so " bu zhi liang li". I told him to accept the truth and get the low paying jobs.

He simply refused to do so and tell me lots of cock theories.

The truth is my mum and I dun expect much of him and he always doesnt want to heed our advices. Not like we're trying to make him worse or anything.

I feel so speechless yet at the same time I really feel like crying.



My family is actually very messy. And I was never really in luck with things i wanna do.

THIS IS LIFE. ITS NEVER FAIR


no matter what
I 'll never become someone like my father.

Went China black yesterday, while it was so different from the last time i've visited it.

Met lian jin over there, every 1 said he changed, but hmm while he did i think. But not so bad at least he manage to get girls around him. haha.

My buddy and his gf had a big fight wondering how they will end up.

Met a gal who said shes my primary school mate. I was quite amazed, so I'm quite popular in primary school huh....

I guess must be the performance I did with johnson haha.........


to think of it.....why did i rekindle my passion for singing so much later.......when I've been singing since young....... Why from primary 6 to poly year 2 I just did gaming etc......why didnt i preservere in the route of music......i picked up guitar in sec 3 just for 3 mths and to forsake it, and now i've need to relearn everything myself and practice.................


is there enough time for me to be a good composer.......is there enough time for me to learn keyboard?............do i have enough money.......... will i make it?


So many questions so little answers............................ life is a mess haiz