ns....ns.......national slavery, being call and run around like a dog, thats the idea. People say police was slack, but my trg was not easy at all, it needs even more endurance then my dragonboat training i feel.

partly was because of my several months of inactiveness. But the training is really a bit out of the world, try doing 300+ push ups, 200+ jumping jacks 100+ crunches, lots of leg race, lots of squats, lots of tutt jumps, lots of jogging on the spot, lots of other kind legs exercise and.....i heard duck walk was banned.

WE GOT DUCK WALK

But i guess its good in another way, gonna make my leg tougher and 2.4 would be easier and shed off weight and pull up would be easier.


But i dun like life being scream around, ordered around, even during my rest time like 8+9.

but from what i saw lifes gonna be easier after the basic police training.


I wanna try for oct, but if i dun get into it i hope i can get some easy vocation......



bk in later @______@ life sucks.

its been a while since i last blogged, and in 4 days time i'm entering the police academy as a trainee policeman.

well, its not my choice but oh well i'm lucky cause police is a pretty relaxed vocation which means i still do have time for my pursuit in music.

Looking back at the past few months after the exams, my work, my music, and how my life has moved on. It just makes me realise time flies and wait for no one.

I really hope my dreams of making music, to become a singer to get a job in the media circle will not be stop because of my playful attitude when I was young.

I did not realise that to become what I want is not thru only luck. I need to work for it. And when i work for what i want at the age of 19,20. Am I too late? Or am i just in time?

Will I end up doing what I want? or will I become the slave of fate and follow an 8-5 job for the rest of my life.

Life is full of questions. Life is a mystery. What is the true purpose of life?

I just want to say


Time waits for no one


To all my friends and whoever read this blog

hello all, havent been blogging in a while, just didnt have the mood.

I never did much lately too, went tioman. It was pretty dull there, but the things there are duty free and cheap. Went with poh guan, patrick , air, and 3 of pg's friends jose, jonathan and tanya. They were very ang moh pai but well i can speak with ang moh accent too ok! haha

never did anything strange over there, there wasnt any special services lol.

came back, rot, plays bits and bits of guitar, dad is jobless and I dunnoe how to find him a job. Times are hard and for someone his age with little education, its even harder.

sometimes i'll think why my dad cant work a bit harder when hes young. And to trouble himself at such an age.

Sometimes i really feel negative about him. But hes my father after all.

I had a quarrel with him today, because hes so " bu zhi liang li". I told him to accept the truth and get the low paying jobs.

He simply refused to do so and tell me lots of cock theories.

The truth is my mum and I dun expect much of him and he always doesnt want to heed our advices. Not like we're trying to make him worse or anything.

I feel so speechless yet at the same time I really feel like crying.



My family is actually very messy. And I was never really in luck with things i wanna do.

THIS IS LIFE. ITS NEVER FAIR


no matter what
I 'll never become someone like my father.

Went China black yesterday, while it was so different from the last time i've visited it.

Met lian jin over there, every 1 said he changed, but hmm while he did i think. But not so bad at least he manage to get girls around him. haha.

My buddy and his gf had a big fight wondering how they will end up.

Met a gal who said shes my primary school mate. I was quite amazed, so I'm quite popular in primary school huh....

I guess must be the performance I did with johnson haha.........


to think of it.....why did i rekindle my passion for singing so much later.......when I've been singing since young....... Why from primary 6 to poly year 2 I just did gaming etc......why didnt i preservere in the route of music......i picked up guitar in sec 3 just for 3 mths and to forsake it, and now i've need to relearn everything myself and practice.................


is there enough time for me to be a good composer.......is there enough time for me to learn keyboard?............do i have enough money.......... will i make it?


So many questions so little answers............................ life is a mess haiz

bored and more bored....haha.......gonna have my car test again soon......just cut my hair......super short now. pre ns preparation hairstyle bah haha......

feel so sian man so many things i dunnoe what to do. I wanna know how to improve my guitar faster...... but i cant afford to go for classes.

i wanna learn the keyboard, a bit regret why i never learn such things when i was young.

i've been thinkin.... should i change music school?

Cause i really dunnoe if hark music can make me something big 1 day a not....and the school fees is increasing. I know, I've learn a lot from hark music and if i just quit I will not get a cert. But in the chinese music industry, time wait for no 1.

If i wanna make something out of myself its within this few years or not. Music clinic seems to have bigger promises with prominent figures and the stupid superstar show are mostly music clinic students.

Music forest seems harsh. I'm waiting for its artiste training management course before I go for an audition.

Chinese has this saying, yin shui si yuan....... I will never my musical experiences in hark music. But I feel that its time to make a move forward.



haiz, life is full of decision making.

Today is national day but the first thing my family did was to visit malaysia at a very crazy timing. We left house before 6am lol.....cause my mum was afraid of a human jam because she need to go settle some malaysia cpf stuffs.

Ok la then we reached grandma area in Tun amina at 715?. Slack around damn sleepy, my youngest uncle brought us out of breakfast. It was a mix of porridge, roti prata and dim sum. song man. and for 5 peeps its only around 35 ringit. Each person less then 4 sgd!

My mum got obsessed with this 300k ringit 3 storey terrence. She say she will consider buying 1. Woot holiday chalet in the making and extra assets ! XD

We're not rich, we just stay in a hdb in sg but its freaking cheap to buy a terrence in malaysia and my mum have plans to retire there so she was interested.

Then we set off for the cpf thingy, it was not resolved and need to be resolved 3 years later. Later on was just hrs of shopping, eating shopping and reached home around 4pm and spent the rest of the day zhuo boh lan play game.

Pract a bit of guitar and dug a very old guitar out hoping to bring to ns but the condition is so bad i feel like just buying a new cheapo 1 before going in lol. I have a working condition 1 but its my precious now......300+ bucks j & d guitar. i dun wanna it get hurt till i get a new 1. A taylor !!!!

I need to practise on my singing! =\

been a long long time since i blogged, just didnt have the mood.

a slight update is yea i'm out of T-est and is a free man now. But this freedom is kinda boring. So i gonna do bits of jogging and some training up for my NS.


Wants to go sherwin hse play guitar and such but always lazy and hes always sleep till late hrs. Isnt there any free man out there with a healthy life style?


Read sandra's article on newspaper. kinda funny, they think shes a virgin lol. and someone actually send her his nude photo.


Maybe i should post some bikini babe photo on my blog and say is me and start conning u retardic moronic dick driven mind dick heads lol.

Havent been blogging lately, rod say i shud update my blog more regularly so that he could know my life more.


Well, nothing goes much on my life it summarises with a few words

work, music, friends, game

yea.

Been working 830-530 mon -fri for some shit company with shit pay and shit job.

music, been try to prac guitar etc........just had a rehersal, gonna have a performance next tuesday at hark music cafe at selegie road, opposite park lane, opp the toto 4d place.

dun worry, i won't be the only 1 singer, 3 other ladies are singing too and 1 of them really had a great voice so u'll be in for a treat for ur ears if you come.

been hanging out with my friends as much as possible whenever i can, especially weekit and george the 2 army boy. they going bmt soon i still got 3 mths to enlist haha.

been playing bits and bits of guildwar and dota but not much time for gaming especially i have so many shit in my life =

well work ends around aug to give me time to do what i want before enlist so yea~ will be more free in aug =)

been like forever since i last blogged........just felt lazy, moody, tired, restless to blog, many things happened along this past few weeks.

I got a job as a printer software tester in a company called T-est haha.....met a bunch of cool dudes or dicks from ntu nus blablabla

Had my first performance at hark music cafe last last weekend, yes its open so u guys could go down and take a look.

On a sad note....... a close friend, as close as a brother. Even though we went seperate ways after secondary school, even though we only came in contact after so long. After our brief meeting 2-3 mths ago, hes dead now, resting his soul in a safe haven where there will only be peace and serenity.

He is Ivan Ong Peng Ghee, the joker of our batch, the most corny, kampung, cranky dude in gan eng seng school. He brought laughter to our life and now he brought tears to many.

Its such a shame that a fine young man like him should pass away so fast, so suddenly. The dreams the goals he bear are shattered only to be burnt with his body.

However that is not the last of him, the every move, every speech, every thought that he showed us shall be deeply engrave in our hearts.

His soul will transform into the seeds of memories that will linger in the hearts of many.

May your soul rest peacefully and lets be friends again in our after life.

very long nv post so thought i'll post somethings

kk i've learn about the truth of the superstar show, it was actually a conspiracy of music clinic , a local music school.


they were actually the true organisers and the finalist most of them were the school's student, get the catch?


many that sang well did not get thru, i dont mean myself, i dunch think i'm good but at least i would definitely fair enough to get through the first round.


my vocal teacher told me that 1 of her student got into further, and there were a few that sound great, but wasnt chosen to the next round, the judges were event paying attention.


so the show was just a big conspiracy to let those who went to know that its pointless to feel sad if u feel that ur good and ur not being let thru.


Went for a few interviews, but seemed like no 1 likes me, so i'm still jobless, picked a new game call guildwars, play for a few days and max lvl liao, but quite fun la.

maybe i'll go cambridge lang school learn jap one of these days.........


also, next sunday is the preview of the hark music cafe, which means its the 1st nite where performances are being held and students are invited to go.

No public allowed and maybe there are free drinks and food, pretty cool rite

it crashes with dragonboat graduation ceremony.


Kelvin wants me to go for it, but seriously i dunch feel like going. I dunch like tounge wagging saying things like, wah so long nv come trg then come eat free food, beh paiseh.

I must admit, i dun really miss the guys.....somehow i dunch feel very attached to the team. But i do miss hong giap and kelvin as 1 of my best buddies in the team.

In nice term, the team is united, but i do feel that a lot of emotions of the team are on the surface only.

If db team is really a good place to be, i wont quit no matter what in the first place, i've been longing to quit ever since year 2 2nd sem. What spurs me on was the kind of passion ah huat put into training the team.

but the team has its dark side which is very troublesome to say everything out and its private.

So in the end , i chose music over dragonboat.

I dun bear the hope to carve a career out of singing although i wish i could.

Its more of an interest at the time being.

been sometime since i blog cause the stuffs are pretty much boring................


however seline is damn cute can...........omg.......... seline is the agent that works at an recruit agency la........she called me to inform me a job and shes damn cute =).



went to black last sat cause kit going in this thursday....


go where? army lo haha


my turn to go POLICE in sept


anyway black is full of dicks which means so many guys and gays around..........


man what a horrible first black experience.

didnt blog for a while cause so many things happen i dunnoe where to start haha....

summarise

went ktv for bra pat bday

watched starwars epd 3

went to scout for starwars epd 4 5 6 which is whole sg out of stock

went to enquire james more about being pilot

i am red-green color deficient, i knew it but just didnt realise how serious was it.

practised on my guitar and vocal a bit

bo didnt went american idol oh my g, crap

I have no target to jihong i feel so bored.

2nd tp on next next wed lol

maybe go for interview at sls tml for pc show on 2th-5th june.

i am getting fatter......oh my g? expected

most likely going to buy guildwars one of these days.

on a diet that drink a lot of green tea, some jogging and better food.

gonna go celebrate bra and pat bday in a while so i guess i'll blog a bit. Just read a damn stylo blog.........

what a bitch lol


www.teen4sale.blogspot.com


LOL


K yest nite had another rehersal at hark music........ actually elaine i dunnoe i think thats how her name is spelt. She looks kinda cute, but she have really very very bad taste in clothings, not like mine is very good but she looks damn plain jane. I believe she will look great if she dress herself up hah.


It started quite late for me cause the previous gal took so long, shes so unsure of her song. Man......well i just waited but its alright......i love being in hark music. I just feel so comfortable sitting down there chilling.


But aint much friends to chill with me over. Lets hope when hark music cafe open, it'll be a great spot for me to chill at yea? at least let me chill over there till my enlistment and pursue a pilot/singer dream or further studies after that.


Chelsy smsed me but i ignored her. I didnt like the mlm company........too bad mr steven

I'm putting u aeroplane!


Sherwin is physcoing me to WOW which stands for world of warcraft. Its so god damn exp 158 bucks for freaking first 2 mths.

I just check my bank acc, not much $$ left and i'm still slacking without a proper job. Still got vocal class to pay and such...... man think i need to beg more $$ from my parents and continue to be a pest of the society.


Hey man life is short! Do what you love. If u just do something for the $$ you are understating the real meaning of life!


Peace out \/

Just pick up an additional job of being a flyer distributor with zjw.....

man this job is sure tough running around like some mofo and getting stares and such.


At least i know how a hdb flyer distributor is now........respect them k.


Its real tough tekan session! haha


btw looking for 2nd job, mlm aint earning me much and the job principle is so against my own principle.

screw it.


Yea any job offers? pref free lance or part time...........

not in the mood to go for any full time job, i am still a full time slacker, part time performer/vocalist/musician.


Bo bice will be my american idol regardless he wins or not....

but i guess he'll win, go bo bice! you are my hero after clay aiken!

Went to my cousin place to look at her son, can consider my nephew la, so small so petited.
pretty cute. Then my cousin in law was telling about the pilot stuffs, hes a pilot and seems pretty cool........

i will give some serious thoughts about it i guess.


oh my yea, i had a date with xinyun today.............

haha no la tingkai cant make it for class and gregory is missing in action for several weeks so its a 1 to 1 session with my pretty vocal teacher today.


Chat a bit, crap a bit, did some exercise, man she really tekan me den we practised on the songs i'm gonna do for hark cafe performance, yu jian.....


well she pointed out my faults and such and yea i'm working on it and trying to work on when you say nothing at all to be played on guitar so that i can " zhi tan zhi chang".
Then went to watch admitiville horror, pretty cool movie that sent some chills down my spine.


Its a true story man so eerie.



And for the mlm thing, yea i opened an account with venture era selling biomagnetic items........

but i'm too lazy to go hardcore and its not the kind of line i wanna be in.


yea dispite mr steven's constant preeching that i agreed i'm still reluctant to push the product and recruitment cause i'm not really that kind of guy.

this job sucks i tell you yea it sucks but it earns good $$ for some people. some la......and their good $$ is not really that good compared with top people in da world haha.

yesterday went to my rehersal for my performance soon nxt mth. my instrumentalist is a very gentle girl/lady name elaine. Shes pretty good with the keyboard i must admit and i feel comfortable working with her.

After that went to celebrate skye bday, wanted to watch the jacket but theres no tix so we went to pizza hut instead.


then went over to martin's lanshop headquarters at parklane.


play many hours and very funny stuffs happened.


then lucky got george around. i will follow him, wherever he may gooo cause he drives =)

i thought it was just me that i could reach higher notes.........but i am hitting higher notes recently since xinyun told me the tatic..............


but higher notes voice sounds less powerful.... for me la oh well at least i'm going higher.

haiz..........maybe i should just go concentrade on music...............



i should just be true to myself

why do i feel so empty.........

like i........


like i'm missing someone..........

why?