today is a rainy day, somehow on rainy days... i just felt more blue den usual.... on my way home... saw a kid and his mum.... the kid is mentally handicapped and the mum i can see that shes not a happy mother... they both do not wish such thing to happen, i felt sorry for them.

Why God created humans in the first place? Whats our true meaning in life? To live life to the fullest? To be a happy person? If god really love his people, why are there so much sufferings, are humans puppets played by god for his entertainment?
Why cant he bless us and let us lead a happy life?

today after lesson, i and my class guys had a good talk, we talked for an hr + or so.... and its all about girls.... guess we're all very troubled about our love life........ we're the sufferers of love.

One of em said...."when the one your fond of gets with another guy, technically speaking... you will want to wish her happiness with him, but somehow you will wish that you are the one instead of that guy"

Yea... this is very true... i really wish that..... if with him she can be happy....but same time...... i also wished that i could be the guy that takes care of her everything. If she ever end up with him and shes not happy. I'll be 100 times worse then her...... sometimes i just wish.... i can wake up forget everything, but everytime i woke up, the 1st thing i thought about is her.

"i could see i love you, it hurts me deep in my heart"

when would this heartache ever cease.........