when one is unlucky, all the shits comes to him. lost my shoe last week... said the wrong words yesterday, had a bad fall today...my hip hurts.. hurts so much that i really felt like crying.... i used to think that i'm an optimistic guy... but no.... i realise i'm just an ordinary person, thats full of worries and doubts.....

it rained whole day today... as if as the sky is feeling how i feel... crying tears for me..... i really felt like drenching myself in the rain, to wash away all my sorrow. i wish that we can talk again.... but i dunch know when that will be..... if time can turn back.... i wont say those things... at least..... we still talk..... i dun want to make us both uneasy...... i dun dare to face her.... till shes talking with me again....things thats meant to be will be...... i guess this is destined in my life.

although i know that i'm unhappy now.... but i always tell others..... tt we are much more fortunate compared to those dying of hunger in India.... if shit happens to us.... what are they considered.... we should be happy....... but somehow...... i cant
i do smile when my teammates and buddies trys to fool around..... but the smile were short..... i dun smile as often as i do.... i lost my cheery self..... i feel that my heart is dead now..... i feel so dead.... my feelings are going numb too....... maybe because of what instilled in my life.... isnt exactly tt happy for me..... but i'm glad for all the friends and my parents tts there for me for all the time..... i'll cherish my life........but...........

i am just someone thats lost between the boundary of happiness and laughter now....